It's just suddenly I feel like blogging and confess my feelings in the blog.
You don't have to read it. :)
*disclaimer: i do not own all the pictures in this post.*
I always...always think that I own a prefect life. I get something I want, I have my family and so on.
Happy life? I don't think so. I didn't know I have this problem until I was in college.
FRIENDSHIP. Yeah, always. The problem itself never leaves me since I went to college.
Searching for a true friend is difficult, don't you think so? Among 10 people, half or more than half of them become friends with you for some 'purposes'. If you get what I mean.
Yeah, in my case, I find it hard to deal with friends especially NEW FRIENDS.
Whenever I see a bunch of friends walking and laughing together, I tell myself...
However, as day goes by. I can't bear with the loneliness I am having. And then I began to complaint about my life in twitter. It did not help at all, all I want is just a friend's caring. That's why, these days I m so emo. omg. This is not like me, I never let stress takes control over me.
Those people I first became friends always end up become more familiar with my other friends than me.
I never like this kind of feeling, it's like I know him/her first but then he/she talks to my the other friend frequently than to me.
Whenever I see them talking, joking, having fun together while I m just sitting at the corner...
yeah, escape from the reality maybe is the best way isn't it?
I've tried so hard to know more friends, I've tried so hard to smile yet what I get in the end?
It's still LONELINESS.
You know the every second when I look at them and then at myself, I feel like dying.
However, I will not give up trying. I seriously wish to know more friends, I wish to have a bunch of friends where we can laugh together, sharing each other happiness etc (in uni i mean. haha)
I just want to gain a bit of attention, can't I?























